Tuesday, February 28, 2012

My Purpose in Life (Indonesian version)

Sejak kecil, saya seringkali bertanya pada diri sendiri, apa yang bisa saya lakukan untuk orang banyak?

Saya selalu percaya bahwa saya harus melakukan sesuatu yang berguna bagi masyarakat. Bukan hanya menguntungkan diri sendiri saja, tapi juga menguntungkan untuk banyak orang. Mengapa?

Kakek moyang saya adalah Dr. Wahidin Soedirohoesodo, pendiri Boedi Oetomo, organisasi modern pertama di Indonesia yang menyatukan pemuda dan menjadi tonggak pergerakan rakyat di Indonesia. Seratus tahun yang lalu beliau berkeliling Jawa untuk memberikan pendidikan pada masyarakat. Beliau mendidik anak-anak dan para pemuda. Tentu saja beliau melakukannya dengan tulus, karena menginginkan kebaikan bagi masyarakat. Beliau adalah seorang yang sangat berbakti pada negaranya, dan karenanya sangat mengabdi pada pekerjaannya untuk menolong orang lain.
Pentingnya pendidikan menjadi kepercayaan keluarga hingga saat ini.

Kakek buyut saya pun adalah salah satu pendiri Boedi Oetomo, Dr. Soeradji Tirtonegoro. Beliau adalah seorang dokter yang sangat berbakti pada masyarakat. Beliau mengabdi pada masyarakat dengan menyembuhkan mereka, memberikan mereka layanan kesehatan.
Begitu juga dengan kakek saya, Drg. Margono Soeradji. Beliau adalah dokter gigi yang sangat hebat. Beliau melakukan yang terbaik untuk menyembuhkan pasien, dan beliau memberikan pelayanan terbaik pada para pasien. Bahkan, kakek saya memilih menjadi dokter gigi, karena menyadari, pada masa itu belum ada dokter gigi di kota kediamannya.

Mereka adalah orang-orang yang mengabdi pada pekerjaan, masyarakat, dan negara. Mereka adalah orang-orang hebat yang menjadi pahlawan karena berkerja sungguh-sungguh dalam apa yang mereka percayai.
Dan mereka adalah para leluhur saya. Memiliki leluhur seperti mereka, tentu saja saya merasa bahwa saya pun harus melakukan sesuatu dalam hidup ini, yang bisa bermanfaat bagi banyak orang.

Pertanyaannya, apa yang bisa saya lakukan?
Apa yang bisa saya perjuangkan untuk masyarakat?
Apakah tujuan hidup saya?

Jawabannya ada pada latar belakang saya sendiri.
Sejak masih sekolah pun saya sudah seringkali memikirkan, alangkah indahnya bila Indonesia bisa menjadi negara sosialis di mana semua fasilitas pendidikan dan kesehatan gratis untuk masyarakat. Tapi bisakah Indonesia seperti itu?
Tidak usah seekstrim itu.
Daripada memikirkan yang terlalu rumit, dengan usaha yang terlalu jauh, sebenarnya ada cara yang lebih praktis untuk merealisasikan semua itu.

Dan jawabannya lagi-lagi saya temukan melalui latar belakang saya sendiri.
Saya adalah anak seorang pilot pesawat terbang. Sebagai anak seorang pilot, pertanyaan yang paling saya dengar adalah “Apa nggak takut setiap kali Papa terbang?”
Sejak kecil, saya menyadari resiko pekerjaan ayah saya. Beberapa kali terjadi, teman-teman ayah saya dipanggil Tuhan saat sedang menjalankan tugas mereka, meninggalkan istri dan anak mereka. Dan beberapa kali terjadi, teman-teman saya harus pindah ke sekolah lain, atau harus tinggal bersama saudara mereka, karena ayah mereka dipanggil Tuhan.

Percaya atau tidak, walaupun masih anak-anak, saya sudah punya ketakutan bahwa bila sesuatu terjadi pada ayah saya, keluarga kami akan terlantar, dan saya tidak bisa sekolah lagi. Karena saya tahu ibu saya ibu rumah tangga yang tidak punya penghasilan.

Karena itulah konsep asuransi bisa dengan mudahnya masuk dalam keyakinan saya. Saya menyukai, bahkan mencintai konsep yang hebat ini. Begitu seorang teman menjelaskan konsep yang luar biasa dahsyat ini pada saya, saya langsung tahu bahwa konsep ini adalah jawaban dari ketakutan-ketakutan saya.

Maka, menjalankan bisnis ini adalah panggilan buat saya. Saya percaya dengan apa yang saya sampaikan kepada orang-orang di luar sana. Saya percaya akan apa yang saya lakukan. Saya percaya bahwa yang informasi yang saya sampaikan ini bisa menolong banyak orang tanpa banyak usaha. Dan ketika saya mengatakan ‘tanpa banyak usaha’, saya tidak bicara tentang saya, melainkan orang-orang itu sendiri.
Apapun pekerjaan anda, bila anda adalah pencari nafkah dalam keluarga anda, maka anak-anak anda pun memiliki resiko yang sama: bila terjadi sesuatu pada orangtua mereka, mereka akan terlantar dan tidak bisa sekolah.

Mungkin tidak semua anak seperti saya. Mungkin anak-anak kebanyakan belum memiliki ketakutan seperti itu. Tapi saya yakin, setiap orangtua yang menyayangi anaknya, ingin menjamin pada anak-anak mereka, bahwa apapun yang terjadi pada mereka tidak akan mempengaruhi masa depan anak-anak mereka. Saya percaya, bahwa setiap pencari nafkah yang peduli pada keluarganya, tidak ingin membiarkan keluarga mereka terlantar ketika mereka harus pergi untuk selama-lamanya.

Karena itulah, pekerjaan saya adalah memastikan kepada anak-anak anda, bahwa apapun yang terjadi pada anda sebagai pencari nafkah, mereka tidak akan terlantar. Pekerjaan saya adalah memastikan pada anak-anak anda, bahwa apapun yang terjadi pada anda, mereka akan tetap pergi ke sekolah, bahwa mereka akan tetap menyelesaikan pendidikan yang mereka butuhkan sehingga mereka bisa mewujudkan cita-cita mereka menjadi seorang insinyur, dokter, pilot, atau apapun.

Anda boleh percaya atau tidak, anda boleh setuju dengan saya atau tidak. Itu hak anda.
Tapi satu yang harus anda camkan dalam pikiran anda, saat saya datang kepada anda, saya sedang berusaha menolong anda. Jadi, ketika saya datang untuk berbagi mengenai konsep ini, dan anda merasa tidak setuju, jangan katakana pada saya, “Maaf, tidak dulu, deh.” Atau “Maaf, saya sedang tidak ada uang.” Atau “Maaf, saya masih belum yakin.”

Ketika anda berada di lantai 20 sebuah gedung yang sedang terbakar, dan seorang pemadam kebakaran muncul di jendela untuk menyelamatkan anda, namun anda menolak untuk diselamatkan olehnya, apakah anda akan meminta maaf?

Tolonglah, janganlah anda meminta maaf pada saya. Anda sama sekali tidak melakukan kesalahan pada saya. Anda sedang melakukan kesalahan pada diri anda sendiri dan keluarga anda. Jadi kalau anda ingin minta maaf, katakanlah pada diri anda sendiri dan keluarga anda.
Karena, ketika anda setuju dengan konsep asuransi dan memutuskan untuk menyelamatkan keluarga anda, yang paling banyak yang saya dapatkan hanyalah 5% dari penghasilan anda, dan itupun bukan dari uang yang anda setorkan. Jadi bila anda tidak mengambilnya, hanya sebesar itulah kehilangan saya.
Namun, bila anda tidak bersedia mengambil konsep ini, sebenarnya anda sudah kehilangan 10,000 % dari pengeluaran anda. Anda kehilangan kesempatan untuk mendapatkan pengganti penghasilan saat resiko terjadi pada anda. Jadi, bukankah seharusnya saya yang meminta maaf pada anda karena tidak berhasil meyakinkan anda?

Percayalah pada saya, konsep ini sangat baik dan bermanfaat bagi anda dan keluarga. Dan percayalah, saya akan mengabdi pada pekerjaan saya seperti para pendahulu saya mengabdi pada pekerjaan mereka. Saya mengabdi pada klien-klien saya seperti kakek saya mengabdi pada pasien-pasien beliau.
Di luar sana ada banyak sekali orang yang bisa saya tolong. Tinggal masalah mereka mau atau tidak saya tolong.

Jadi, apakah sekarang anda mau membantu saya mewujudkan impian saya?
Maukah anda membantu saya menjalankan tujuan hidup saya?

Maukah anda membantu saya menyelamatkan keluarga anda?

Maukah anda menyelamatkan anak-anak anda?

Jawabannya ada pada anda. ;)

My Important Mission, My True Purpose in Life


Since I was a kid, I’ve been wondering, what can I do for people?
I believe that I have to do something good to help people.

My grandfather’s grandfather was Dr. Wahidin Soedirohoesodo, one of this country’s heroes. He was the founding father of Boedi Oetomo, the first modern organization who moved this country to its freedom. A century ago, he travelled across Java to educate people. He gave education to children and youth. He was very passionate about what he believed. And the believe system of the importance of education become family believe until now.
My father’s grandfather was also one of Boedi Oetomo’s founder, Dr. Soeradji Tirtonegoro. They named a hospital in Central Java after his name. He’s also a hero because he did something really good for people. He was a devoted doctor. He helped people by healing them because he loved what he did.
So did my grandfather, Drg. Margono Soeradji. He was a very great dentist. He always tried his best to heal his patient. He was very devoted to his job.

And they are all my ancestors! They are the people who were very devoted to help people in education and health.

So, I thought I’ve got to do something big like that. Well, maybe it doesn’t have to be that big. But I have to do something good, something really important, something that could help many people. Not to be known, but to make this world better.

When I was in high school, I loved the idea of socialist country where all the education and healthcare facilities for people are free. I wanted Indonesia to be like that, and still do want it until now. But what should I do? Run for president? Really?
Well, maybe. But no, that would be too extreme and too complicated.

So the question is, what can I do? What is my purpose in life?

I found it from my very own background.
I’m a daughter of a pilot. As a pilot’s daughter, most people often asked me, “Aren’t you afraid every time your dad went flying a plane?”
Yes, ever since I was a kid, I realize the risk of my father’s job. There were some cases, where my father’s friends died on duty, left their wife and children. And I also heard some of my friends had to live with their relatives and move to other school because their father passed away.

Believe it or not, although I was just a little kid, I already had fear, that if something happened to my father, our family would be abandoned. I was afraid that I would never go to school anymore. Because my mother is a housewife. She doesn’t have salary.

That is why, I like, even love the great concept of insurance since the first time my friend told me. It fits my greatest concern. This beautiful concept is the answer of my biggest fear.

So, doing this business is a nature call for me. I believe in what I tell to people out there everyday. I believe in what I am doing. I know that what I tell to people, this information can help many people without lots of efforts. And by ‘lots of efforts’ I was talking about them, not me.

Whatever your job is, if you are the money maker of the family, so your children would have the same risk that I thought when I was a kid: if something happened to their parents, they would be abandoned and might not go to school anymore.

Maybe not every children have that kinda fear. But I’m sure, every parents those care about their children have that fear, and I’m strongly sure, they want a guarantee, that no matter what happens to them, their children would always go to school until they finish their education. Right?

So that’s why, my job is make sure to your children, that they are save. Whatever happened with their parents, they would not be abandoned, and they would never stop going to school, and they would finish their education, and become whatever they want: doctor, engineer, pilot, president, etc.

One thing you need to bear in your mind, when I come to you to share this great concept, don't ever feel bad to me if you don't want to take this concept. Maybe you don't believe it. It's okay. It would be your problem. You don't have to say to me, "Sorry, I don't need it right now." or "Sorry, maybe not right now." or "Sorry, I don't have the money."
No! Don't say that to me. You make no mistake to me. The right thing to do is saying sorry to yourself, or your family.

If you take the solution I suggest to you, I only got less than 5% of your income. And I don't even get that from your money. But if you don't take the solution, you actually lost 10,000 % of your expense. So now, who has to say sorry?

Trust me, this concept is very important for you and your family. And I can guarantee, I know what to do and I know why I do my job here. I have plenty of people to help. It's just the matter of either they want my help or not.

So now, would you help me do my purpose in life?

Would you help me to save your family?

Would you help me to save your children?

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Socky: The Greatest Dog Ever

Some couples of days ago, my sister’s friend just lost one of her dogs. Was a Chihuahua puppy named Norton. Of course it broke her heart. Sherin, my sister’s friend, has three dogs, as far as I know: a golden retriever named Apple, a pitbull named something, and Norton the Chihuahua. From what I’ve heard, Norton ran to the street and got hit by a car. What a jerk! I mean the driver.
All my condolences for Sherin and her family. May Norton rest in peace. All dogs go to heaven, right?

Oh, man. I know the feeling. Losing a dog feels horrible, feels like… hell… maybe, I don’t even know how hell is. Anyway, I’ve lost a dog too about two years ago. Well, one and a half years ago, to be exact. My dog died on June 10, 2010, right before the World Cup 2010, right before my very birthday.

I’ve told you before about him. His name was Socky. He was just 2 years old when he died. He got sick.
I’ve wanted to tell you about him since so long ago, but I had no time, then I just forgot. But now that something horrible like that just happened, I think it’s about time.

So, I met Socky for the first time in the middle of 2008. I forgot the exact day, but I’m pretty sure it was somewhere in July or August 2008. At that time I used to write my diary every single day, but I never mention Socky before we really, really knew each other. I mean, I didn’t even know his name yet back then. So, I’m not sure about the date, but I remember I was just got back home from Karawaci. I was still living in my old house in Jalan Camar.

Somewhere in 2008...

Socky was one of my neighbor’s dogs. When I was in Jalan Camar, I surrounded by dog lovers. Everyone seems to be a dog-person. I know at least 8 to 10 neighbors who own one dog or more. Socky’s owner was one of them.

Ticoalu family was known by other neighbors for their aggressive dogs. They always have so many dogs, at least more than three, and the dogs were always aggressive. And in Camar, the dogs are just free as a bird. Well, not as a bird, because the dogs don’t fly. I mean, in Camar, it’s always okay to let the dogs out. When some cute dogs were out and play, it’s entertaining for some people. But when Ticoalu’s dogs were out… people were afraid of passing their house. Yeah, people, including me.

But one day in 2008, when I just got back from Karawaci, I passed the Ticoalu’s house with my car, and I saw two cute little puppies playing in front of that house. I spontaneously jumped out of the car and reached them inside my arms. Oh! I can’t forget how cute they were! They were Socky and his sister, Polo. Yeah, I know, who would name a little girl ‘Polo’, right? Hehe…
When I sat there to play and cuddle with them, the both tried to jump on my legs. Oh they were so cute! Have I said that?
After playing for a while with them, I walked to my house, that was only about 10 meters away. Yeah, that close.

The next days after, those two little puppies came and played in my house lots of times. My own dog, Bulbul, is not an aggressive dog, so it was always okay for another dog to just come and play, and sometimes even eat Bulbul’s food. Well, now that Bulbul’s getting older, he’s not always like that anymore. But he’s still nice by the way.

Anyway, me and my family were very happy with those puppies coming to our house pretty often. They’re very entertaining. Sometimes they eat Bulbul’s food. Polo was more strong, tough, active, and smart. Socky was not so active as a puppy, not smart in-a-dog-way, but smart in the tricky way. Polo liked to play fight, she always bite Socky’s ear to provoke him. But Socky was passive. He was more interested with the food. It was very funny. It was just like Polo was the male one.

Socky seemed to be a coward, he always been dominated by Polo (and later by Bulbul). But in fact, Socky was so much brave. Even though they played in our house a lot, Polo wasn’t really comfort with us. I could hold her easily. But she was still afraid with the rest of my family sometimes. But Socky was different. He easily got along with us. Someday, those two dogs came to my house to eat Bulbul’s food. When I came to protect Bulbul’s food, Polo stopped eating and ran right away. But Socky kept eating like nothing happened. I pulled Bulbul’s bowl. But Socky’s mouth just followed the bowl. That was so cute. So finally I just let them finish that food.

Sometimes me and Deany just watched them play together with Bulbul. We did nothing, just watched and laughed. It was really fun.

Then one day, Socky’s owner gave Polo away. They gave her to someone who might live far enough from there. So Socky was alone. There were other dogs, two female named Crispy and Mocca, and one male named Bruno. They both old, about 10 to 14 years old. They were aggressive and not nice at all. They always barked at people. From their physical appearances, I think they were mixed Welsh Corgy dogs, a breed of guarding dog. They were tiny, but aggressive and super protective. Mocca was Socky and Polo’s mother. The Ticoalu’s maid said that Bulbul was their father. But they didn’t look like Bulbul at all. They were short and tiny just like their mother. And also aggressive and not nice to people.

After they gave Polo away, Socky became the only puppy in that house. So he liked it better to be at my old house with Bulbul. Because Bulbul was still so young back then. He was just 3 years old. Bulbul was still skinny, super friendly, and playful. So Socky came pretty often to play with Bulbul, and eat Bulbul’s food.
Ah.., that was one hell of great memories, seeing them playing like that.



Socky in his earlier life. I took these pics with my SLR camera one morning in the middle of 2008.
Socky was a really talented model.


After a while, someday Bulbul started protecting his food. Maybe he started to feel that it wasn't right, letting other dogs eating his food just like that. So, then we realized that we could use Socky's presence to solve Bulbul's eating problem. Bulbul used to have this eating problem. He doesn't wanna eat the food, if we don't feed it to his mouth. It's kinda hard to make him start eating. But once he wanna start, he won't stop.

But, with Socky's presence, Bulbul was afraid that Socky would eat his food. So, every times Socky came to our house, first Bulbul would attack him. Well, he wasn't really attacking Socky. It was just like a warning. He would start growling. Then he ate his food quickly. Socky was afraid of Bulbul, so he wouldn't come inside before Bulbul finished eating.

So that was how we used Socky to make Bulbul eat. We did it so many times, until one day, we feel pity that Socky was only used like that. While Bulbul was eating, Socky just sat and watched. Then he would lick the empty bowl after Bulbul finish the meal. We didn't wanna feed Socky. He's not our dog. If we feed him, he would never leave our house. He would think that he was our dog. But then, he was already like our dog anyway. He came almost everyday, sometimes even slept in our car port. So, one day, we started feeding Socky too. Since then, every time we fed Bulbul, we also fed Socky.

In my old house in Jalan Camar, we let the dogs not only out, but also in. Bulbul could go inside and outside the house as he like. Well, we used to keep him in the car port: he was not allowed to be inside the house or outside the fence. But since he was getting bigger, he could jump through the fence and the window. So it became useless to keep him anywhere. He was really, really free.

So, there were times when we already fed Socky every time he came, but never let him go inside our house. So Socky could only come to our front yard, front porch and the carport. That was the only thing differentiated Socky and Bulbul. But sometimes he ran so fast and made it inside our house. But we carried him to the backyard. Then Bulbul and Socky would play so happily on the green grass. They played fight, balls, sandals, everything.

One night, the rain fell. It was a hell of rain. It was a storm. Earlier that day, Socky came to our house to play with Bulbul. When the rain started falling, Bulbul came inside the house. But we couldn't let Socky in, because he wasn't our dog. But me and Bapak felt pity, seeing him sitting in the car port like that, in the middle of the big rain. Socky couldn't go home. I wanted to let him in, and so did Bapak. But we were afraid of Mama. But finally Bapak let Socky in anyway, and when I was in the kitchen with Mama, we were surprised that suddenly a very little, cold nose kissed our calves.

Mama didn't like the idea of letting people's dog inside our house, but she couldn't be angry. Socky really took her heart. Socky took everyone's heart.

Since then, Socky became more often came inside our house. Someday, Socky came when it was time to bath Bulbul. Nuroso, the young man that used to work for our family, used to bath Bulbul. Considering that Socky started think that he was allowed to come inside the house, Mama (or maybe Bapak, I forgot) told Nur to bath Socky too. So that was how he finally, unofficially, became our dog. Well, we fed him, we gave him bath, he could come inside the house as he like, so, he was no different with Bulbul. The only difference was, Socky could also go to Ticoalu family's house anytime he wanted to.

After a pretty long time, Socky was more often in our house than in his real owner's house, and later he was hardly ever go to his real owner's house. Socky ate in our house, washed and cleaned in our house, and always slept in our house.

His favorite spot was the first rung of the stairs. He slept there almost all the time. His other favorite spot was on the floor, next to the big window that face the backyard, between the backdoor and the fridge. Oh! And of course, anywhere I was.

Socky broke all the rules. He easily went upstairs, entered the bathroom, waiting for me while I took a bath. Sometimes he slept in the bathroom floor. He really liked the bathroom. Sometimes when my bedroom door was open, Socky just came inside my bedroom. Bulbul would never do that.

I remember how hard and how loud I laughed, when I realized that Socky really hated his reflection on the bathroom mirror. He didn't know that that short little dog he saw was himself. He kept barking on his reflection. I tried to make him understand that it was him, by holding him, and show him my reflection holding his. But he barked to my reflection too. Oh... so cute! It was hilarious!

The other funny thing about Socky was, he was a really smart, intelligent, even genius dog! He really knew how to take people's sympathy. Once, Deany was just came home with Ella, her close friend, and Socky did something bad, I forgot what was it. Deany was mad at Socky and yelled, "Socky!" and then Socky fell to the ground and act dead. Deany and Ella were like, "What? Where did he learn that?"

It was unbelievable. I mean, he's not trained at all. He didn't even understand 'sit' and 'jump'.

And once, some shitty debt collectors (I f***in hate debt collectors I wish all the debt collectors die) came to our neighbor's house, and one of those shits hit Socky (I wish the one who did it die of cancer or any torturing condition). Socky was totally okay. But still, I was really mad that someone could do such thing to such a lovely creature.
When Nur told me about that incident, Mama said maybe the shit was afraid of Socky. Then I said, "No way! Socky is a harmless, cute, little dog!" Then, just as if he understood what I said, Socky came to me and asked for a hug. He put on that angelic, innocence baby face, and made cute noises. Aaaaww.... so cute!!!


On 2009, our family started moving to the new house in Senayan Bintaro. We've been building that house since early 2008. The moving progress took a very long time and effort. There were about 6 or 7 months when we lived in two house. We kept moving between the old house and the new house. There were still lots of our belongings in the old house.

So, sometimes we lived in the old house, sometimes we lived in the new house. But the fridge was still in the old house, and we kept the dogs food in the fridge. So the dogs were always in the old house. Sometimes...






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Friday, January 6, 2012

I Wanna Be a Kid Forever!!

It's so damn true.

I wanna be a kid forever. I don't wanna grow up. I refuse to.

When I was already successful and rich one day, I would live as a rich kid. I would have so many toys in my future house.

Have I ever told you about my future house?

It's not really big. I'm not a fan of big house. But it might be pretty expensive, that's why I have to be rich to build that kinda house.

My house design's gotta be extremely unique yet simple. And it's gotta be so me. Outside my future house, there would be futsal field (also could be used for mini-rugby and american football), boxing ring, basketball field, trampoline, and rubber pool for babies. Oh, and there would be a big playground too, with the giant slingshot, flying fox, sliding board, and so much more.

Now talking about the house itself.

My future house would be a very eco-friendly house. It doesn't have air conditioner. It would be totally okay with me, since I'm totally a summer person. Every household products have to be eco-friendly, such as the Body Shop products. I would not use...

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

I Have Lots of Phobias

I have these phobias below. Most of them are mild, some of them pretty bad. So here's the list:


Achluophobia- Fear of darkness.
Acousticophobia- Fear of noise.
Agateophobia- Fear of insanity.
Agliophobia/Algophobia- Fear of pain.
Agoraphobia- Fear of open spaces or of being in crowded, public places like markets. Fear of leaving a safe place.
Aichmophobia- Fear of needles or pointed objects.
Ailurophobia- Fear of cats.
Alektorophobia- Fear of chickens.
Amathophobia- Fear of dust.
Angrophobia - Fear of anger or of becoming angry.
Anthropophobia- Fear of people or society.
Apiphobia- Fear of bees.
Arachnephobia or Arachnophobia- Fear of spiders.
Arsonphobia- Fear of fire.
Astraphobia or Astrapophobia- Fear of thunder and lightning.(Ceraunophobia, Keraunophobia)
Athazagoraphobia- Fear of being forgotton or ignored or forgetting.

Bathophobia- Fear of depth.
Batrachophobia- Fear of amphibians, such as frogs, newts, salamanders, etc.
Blennophobia- Fear of slime.
Bogyphobia- Fear of bogeys or the bogeyman.
Bufonophobia- Fear of toads.


Cainophobia or Cainotophobia- Fear of newness, novelty.
Cancerophobia or Carcinophobia- Fear of cancer.
Cenophobia or Centophobia- Fear of new things or ideas.Chemophobia- Fear of chemicals or working with chemicals.
Clinophobia- Fear of going to bed.

Anglophobia- Fear of England or English culture, etc. (What the heaven! Does Prince Charles cause this? LOL!)
Apotemnophobia- Fear of persons with amputations.
Arachibutyrophobia- Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth.
Astrophobia- Fear of stars or celestial space.
Asymmetriphobia- Fear of asymmetrical things. (So cute!)
Aurophobia- Fear of gold. (LOL!! How the heaven could that possibly be?)
Auroraphobia- Fear of Northern lights.
Automatonophobia- Fear of ventriloquist's dummies, animatronic creatures, wax statues - anything that falsly represents a sentient being.

Bolshephobia- Fear of Bolsheviks. (OMG! Seriously?)
Barophobia- Fear of gravity.

Bibliophobia- Fear of books.




Chrometophobia or Chrematophobia- Fear of money. (WHAAATTT...??????? WHY???)
Chromophobia or Chromatophobia- Fear of colors.
Chronomentrophobia- Fear of clocks.
Cibophobia- Fear of food.(Sitophobia, Sitiophobia)

Coprastasophobia- Fear of constipation.
Coprophobia- Fear of feces.
Consecotaleophobia- Fear of chopsticks.

Cyberphobia- Fear of computers or working on a computer.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Have you ever heard of my love life?


One of my best friends and my loyal blog reader just asked me, “How come you never write anything about love?” and I was like “Really? I did write some posts about love.”
And my friend was like “Really? Which one?”
“I did, haven’t you read? I wrote about how much I love my self, Ronaldo, and football, aren’t they counted?”

Of course my friend was talking about the love ‘Love’, you know, like boyfriend-girlfriend thingy, lovers, anything like that. And I thought, and still think, “Yeah, why not?” It seems to be a popular topic anyway. If it could make more people read my blog, then why not?

So I’m gonna tell you what I think of love.
I don’t have one. Not that kinda love if you asked.

Don’t take me wrong. Some people have a crush on me, I have a crush on some people, but that’s it. Just a crush. Okay, maybe some people have more than a crush on me, but I never let my self have more than a crush to others.

I don’t really believe that boyfriend-girlfriend thingy, you know. It’s so silly. I mean, it’s not silly for them who like that kinda relationship. It is silly for me.

It’s not like I can’t love anyone, okay. I love everyone. I love my dad, mom, sister, brother, dog, my mom and dad’s brothers and sisters and their kids, and their kids’ kids, and their dogs, my best friends and their family and dogs, my lovers.

I love everyone. But to have a boyfriend… ugh… it’s such a… I can’t even find a perfect word to describe it.

I mean, why should I have one? I don’t wanna get married anyway. But, instead of that reason, I have more realistic reason.
They called me loner, even I used to think that I might be a loner. But that’s not true. That’s not true at all!
Some of my closest friends often asked me, “How could you love your friends so easily, have a crush on people so easily, but never love your boyfriends?”
Guys, you took me wrong. I did love my boyfriends. I just can’t take that responsibility of being a girlfriend.

Some of them who have crush on me think that they are just not my type, that my reason, that I simply just don’t wanna have a boyfriend, is just a big bullshit. But it’s not a bullshit at all. That kinda relationship is. Oops… sorry!

I think that boyfriend-girlfriend relationship is kinda… narrow. Not shallow, okay, narrow.
It doesn’t make sense. We have to be attached to one person only until we finally get married, or break up. When the boyfriend has a friend that happens to be a girl, the girlfriend gets jealous. When the girl spent a weekend with other boy, the boyfriend gets jealous. When the boyfriend fell in love with other girl, it would be called cheating. When I kissed a girl’s boyfriend, I’d be called b****. WTF?

My family would never cheat on me. Why? Because it’s okay to have more than one family.
My friends would never cheat on me. Because it’s always okay to have more than one friend.
It’s always okay to have more than one family and friend. The more you have even better. Your friend’s other friend is always your friend. But your boyfriend’s other girlfriend would never be your girlfriend.

My family and friends would never leave me for having other family and friends. They would never leave me for not keeping in touch with them. They would never leave me just because they don’t like my attitude or personality. They would never stop liking me. They would never stop loving me, just like I would never stop loving them.
Every time I had boyfriend, it’s always like I have to be in touch with them every time, everyday, or at least twice a week. Yep, even when we have nothing to do and nothing to say! Boring! When I don’t spend time with my boyfriend, they will call me ignorant. When I don’t have communication with my boyfriend, when I chose to enjoy my life just for a little while, I will be blamed for being so selfish and bla, bla, bla. If we really have nothing to do and nothing to say, should we still communicate or even meet each other?
My family and friends would never do that. I don’t have to spend time with my family and friends everyday. When I need them, I will come to them. When they need me, they will come to me. It would be always okay to not being in touch even more than months. We would just understand each other, miss each other, and when we finally meet again, we’re gonna be so happy. What a wonderful relationship.

My family and friends would never leave me when I have a boyfriend they don’t like, even when they really hate my boyfriend. But a boyfriend can leave his girlfriend just because he doesn’t like the family, and so can a girl friend to her boyfriend. If I ever have to choose, I would always pick my family and friend over my boyfriend. And by the way, I will hate him so much for hating my family and friends.

No. I’m not a loner. I’m the exact opposite of a loner, that’s why being anyone’s girlfriend feels so lonely for me.

So, for those have a crush on me, no, I don’t wanna be your girlfriend. Sorry.
For those I have a crush on, relax! I don’t wanna be your girlfriend! D’oh!
And for those we have a crush on each other, no, I don’t wanna be your girlfriend. Let’s just have a crush on each other. ;-)

Thursday, March 31, 2011

My Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

A month ago, or so, I talked about Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) a lot with my friends. I don't know why but one day a friend bring that up to me in a conversation with some other friends. We were like, sharing our oddities, behaviors, our OCDs, and suddenly I realize that I had so many kinda OCD. Wow!

Then after that conversation with a group of friends, I bring that up to my other friends. At least I'm telling my OCD to... like 4 or 5 of my group of friends. And now, since this is the blog about me, why don't just write them all down here?

image: medicinehq.net

So, my OCDs are:

1. Ripping the paper and destroying personal data
--- Other can be so darn perfectionist in making their bed, cooking, doing their job, their homework, their artwork, etc. It can be a good thing. But me, I'm perfectionist in a very, very unimportant thing, such as... destroying data!
--- It's like, you know when you have to throw a used-envelope to a garbage, and it has your full name and address on its side? So, you have to destroy it, right? Or, when you just took your ATM card from the bank and it gave you the paper with your secret number on it. After you read it, you have to destroy the number before you throw the paper, right?
--- So, in my case, every time I have to destroy my data, whether it was a pin number, or an envelope with my name and address on it, or my private letters, or anything like that, I would cut it, letter by letter, and try to make it up again, like doing a puzzle, and if I can still put them together and found my address, I will cut it in smaller pieces. I will make it totally impossible to be put together again by anyone, as if anyone would do such a thing.
--- And usually I divide them to be 3 or 4 groups. I divide the letters of my name and put each part in different group, and so my address and other personal data, and then I'll put each group in different trash bins. Let say, I put the first group in my home trash bin, so the other group would be in the trash bin on the bus stop, the other in my office, and the rest would be threw like... maybe a week later. Crazy? Well, that's why I call it OCD.

2. Counting letters in a phrase, people's name, or long words
--- Every time I saw people's name, or company name, building name, words, or anything that is a group of letters, I would automatically divide them in my mind, trying to find, with which number should I divide them.
For example: Astari Pahlevi; (a, s) (t, a) (r, i) (p, a) (h, l) (e, v) and... oh darn the 'i' doesn't have friends, so it mustn't be divided by 2. Let's try again with 3: (a, s, t) (a, r, i) (p, a, h) (l, e, v), darn, the 'i' still doesn't have friends. BTW, it won't work with my name anyway, it's a prime number.
--- My favorite number to divide words is 3. I like it when people have long name, because when they have short name like mine, it's gonna be very easy to guess whether it would be divided perfectly or not.
So, for example, I'm gonna give you the longest name I can remember.
 NUNO MIGUEL SOARES PEREIRA RIBEIRO GOMES (Portuguese footballer)
Lets start from my favorite divider, 3: (n, u, n) (o, m, i) (g, u, e) (l, s, o) (a, r, e) (s, p, e) (r, e, i) (r, a, r) (i, b, e) (r, i, o) (g, o, m)...arrhh the 'es' doesn't fit!
Ok, maybe we can try 4: (n, u, n, o) (m, i, g, u) (elso ares pere irar iber iogo... (arrh!!) mes
5: nunom iguel soare spere irari beiro... gomes!!! yeeaaaayyyy!!!!! So it can be divided by 5, kool!
What's the use of this? Don't ask me! It's just the OCD!

3. Chance and probability
--- I am so obsessed in finding every chance and probability. Like, I always wanna write down every possible way to rearrange my name.
--- My name contain the letter "a, a, a, e, h, i, i, l, p, r, s, t, v". So, one day... well, actually it last more than 2 or 3 days, I was struggling to write down all possibilities in arranging the letter in my name. I started with Aaaehiilprstv, then Aaaehiilprsvt, Aaaehiilprtsv, Aaaehiilprtvs, Aaaehiilprvst, Aaaehiilprvts.... oh darn, I start doing that again.
--- Whew! It's killing me! I know, I can count it with mathematic formula. But I simply just have to write that down.

4. Pattern, rules, and numbers
--- When I saw pattern, I would pay very attention to that pattern, so I would realize when something is out of the pattern. Let say, I was in a building, maybe an office, a mall, or something like that, and that building happens to have colorful wall paper. Maybe the pattern was lines with the color pattern: red-yellow-blue-pink-green-red... when I saw the red appeared twice, I started to find the pattern. Let say, the color after that is blue, and not yellow, so I would notice that it hasn't been a pattern yet. I would start looking for where the pattern started.
--- Other case, every time I go up or down the stairs, I always skip one stair just to see whether the stairs have odd or even rungs.

5. Social normative values
--- I always try to fight this OCD because this is the most annoying OCD I have. I feel like exploding every time I saw others break the values those I've been taught.
--- Like, when you're gonna cross the street on a zebra cross, I've been taught that the cars are supposed to stop and give chance to pedestrian to walk across the street. That's why it is called zebra cross. But in Indonesia, it doesn't work that way. Whenever we cross the street, no matter we walked on the zebra cross or not, the car wouldn't give a damn. They're just gonna keep going, even spur the car faster. So, in Indonesia, if we wanna cross the street, it doesn't matter whether we were on zebra cross or not. The most important thing is, we have to wait until no cars pass. For others in Indonesia, it is just usual. But I found it really, really annoying. When I crossed the zebra cross and the cars won't stop, I would slap the cars body, or kick it, or show the you-know-which finger to the driver.
--- Other case, when I was on the bus, I found it very annoying to see men don't stand and let the women sit. Maybe others are just already get used to it. But I always found it irritating. Sometimes, when I stood in the bus, and somebody leave the seat, and then a man meant to take the seat, I even said to the man, "Come on, fagot! I'm supposed to sit there! I'm a woman!" and push the man away, force him to give me seat.

6. Eating mixed vegetable
--- Do you know the frozen vegetable, that is a mix of sliced carrots, corn, bean, and peas? It is usually served with steak and french fries. Every time I ate mixed vegetable (and it truly is, mixed up), I would separate them, the carrots slices, the corn, the bean, and peas, and I have to eat all the bean first, then the carrot, then the pea, and the last is the corn. I always eat them from the one I like the less to the one I like the most.

7. Writing my diary every single day in a very detail description about everything
--- Was my OCD. When I was 19 - 22, writing diary was being my obsession. I can be so mad and irritated if I miss one day and forget what happened that day.
--- I think right now I'm already over it. Thanks for the damage of my former computer.

But, BTW, it happens that everyone has their own OCD. Yes! Everyone! You have your own OCD.
And I know one celebrity with pretty bad OCD.

David Beckham

Yup! He is perfectionist, so that "it manifests itself through constant cleanliness and perfection of all that is around him. Anything out of order is enough to cause a conflict and must be attended to immediately. Examples of this complete order is that everything must be in pairs, if there are three books on a table one must be added, or one must be removed. Only 2% of the population suffer from this strong OCD."

Read more: http://www.disabled-world.com/artman/publish/famous-ocd.shtml#ixzz1IA2Bqu7t


In that link above you can see the list of famous people with OCD.

Sometimes OCD can be funny. But OCD can also be dangerous. And sometimes it isn't realized or recognized as OCD. Look all those terrorists and some people whose defending them.

They are not doing what the religion told them. It's not religion. It's OCD. They have OCD about their believes. They are obsessed with the idea that everyone is doing things their way. So, when someone has different view, they get so annoyed and would do anything to get rid of those people in any way.