My Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

A month ago, or so, I talked about Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) a lot with my friends. I don't know why but one day a friend bring that up to me in a conversation with some other friends. We were like, sharing our oddities, behaviors, our OCDs, and suddenly I realize that I had so many kinda OCD. Wow!

Then after that conversation with a group of friends, I bring that up to my other friends. At least I'm telling my OCD to... like 4 or 5 of my group of friends. And now, since this is the blog about me, why don't just write them all down here?

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So, my OCDs are:

1. Ripping the paper and destroying personal data

--- Other can be so darn perfectionist in making their bed, cooking, doing their job, their homework, their artwork, etc. It can be a good thing. But me, I'm perfectionist in a very, very unimportant thing, such as... destroying data!

--- It's like, you know when you have to throw a used-envelope to a garbage, and it has your full name and address on its side? So, you have to destroy it, right? Or, when you just took your ATM card from the bank and it gave you the paper with your secret number on it. After you read it, you have to destroy the number before you throw the paper, right?

--- So, in my case, every time I have to destroy my data, whether it was a pin number, or an envelope with my name and address on it, or my private letters, or anything like that, I would cut it, letter by letter, and try to make it up again, like doing a puzzle, and if I can still put them together and found my address, I will cut it in smaller pieces. I will make it totally impossible to be put together again by anyone, as if anyone would do such a thing.

--- And usually I divide them to be 3 or 4 groups. I divide the letters of my name and put each part in different group, and so my address and other personal data, and then I'll put each group in different trash bins. Let say, I put the first group in my home trash bin, so the other group would be in the trash bin on the bus stop, the other in my office, and the rest would be threw like... maybe a week later. Crazy? Well, that's why I call it OCD.

2. Counting letters in a phrase, people's name, or long words

--- Every time I saw people's name, or company name, building name, words, or anything that is a group of letters, I would automatically divide them in my mind, trying to find, with which number should I divide them.

For example: Astari Pahlevi; (a, s) (t, a) (r, i) (p, a) (h, l) (e, v) and... oh darn the 'i' doesn't have friends, so it mustn't be divided by 2. Let's try again with 3: (a, s, t) (a, r, i) (p, a, h) (l, e, v), darn, the 'i' still doesn't have friends. BTW, it won't work with my name anyway, it's a prime number.

--- My favorite number to divide words is 3. I like it when people have long name, because when they have short name like mine, it's gonna be very easy to guess whether it would be divided perfectly or not.

So, for example, I'm gonna give you the longest name I can remember.

 NUNO MIGUEL SOARES PEREIRA RIBEIRO GOMES (Portuguese footballer)

Lets start from my favorite divider, 3: (n, u, n) (o, m, i) (g, u, e) (l, s, o) (a, r, e) (s, p, e) (r, e, i) (r, a, r) (i, b, e) (r, i, o) (g, o, m)...arrhh the 'es' doesn't fit!

Ok, maybe we can try 4: (n, u, n, o) (m, i, g, u) (elso ares pere irar iber iogo... (arrh!!) mes

5: nunom iguel soare spere irari beiro... gomes!!! yeeaaaayyyy!!!!! So it can be divided by 5, kool!

What's the use of this? Don't ask me! It's just the OCD!

3. Chance and probability

--- I am so obsessed in finding every chance and probability. Like, I always wanna write down every possible way to rearrange my name.

--- My name contain the letter "a, a, a, e, h, i, i, l, p, r, s, t, v". So, one day... well, actually it last more than 2 or 3 days, I was struggling to write down all possibilities in arranging the letter in my name. I started with Aaaehiilprstv, then Aaaehiilprsvt, Aaaehiilprtsv, Aaaehiilprtvs, Aaaehiilprvst, Aaaehiilprvts.... oh darn, I start doing that again.

--- Whew! It's killing me! I know, I can count it with mathematic formula. But I simply just have to write that down.

4. Pattern, rules, and numbers

--- When I saw pattern, I would pay very attention to that pattern, so I would realize when something is out of the pattern. Let say, I was in a building, maybe an office, a mall, or something like that, and that building happens to have colorful wall paper. Maybe the pattern was lines with the color pattern: red-yellow-blue-pink-green-red... when I saw the red appeared twice, I started to find the pattern. Let say, the color after that is blue, and not yellow, so I would notice that it hasn't been a pattern yet. I would start looking for where the pattern started.

--- Other case, every time I go up or down the stairs, I always skip one stair just to see whether the stairs have odd or even rungs.

5. Social normative values

--- I always try to fight this OCD because this is the most annoying OCD I have. I feel like exploding every time I saw others break the values those I've been taught.

--- Like, when you're gonna cross the street on a zebra cross, I've been taught that the cars are supposed to stop and give chance to pedestrian to walk across the street. That's why it is called zebra cross. But in Indonesia, it doesn't work that way. Whenever we cross the street, no matter we walked on the zebra cross or not, the car wouldn't give a damn. They're just gonna keep going, even spur the car faster. So, in Indonesia, if we wanna cross the street, it doesn't matter whether we were on zebra cross or not. The most important thing is, we have to wait until no cars pass. For others in Indonesia, it is just usual. But I found it really, really annoying. When I crossed the zebra cross and the cars won't stop, I would slap the cars body, or kick it, or show the you-know-which finger to the driver.

--- Other case, when I was on the bus, I found it very annoying to see men don't stand and let the women sit. Maybe others are just already get used to it. But I always found it irritating. Sometimes, when I stood in the bus, and somebody leave the seat, and then a man meant to take the seat, I even said to the man, "Come on, fagot! I'm supposed to sit there! I'm a woman!" and push the man away, force him to give me seat.

6. Eating mixed vegetable

--- Do you know the frozen vegetable, that is a mix of sliced carrots, corn, bean, and peas? It is usually served with steak and french fries. Every time I ate mixed vegetable (and it truly is, mixed up), I would separate them, the carrots slices, the corn, the bean, and peas, and I have to eat all the bean first, then the carrot, then the pea, and the last is the corn. I always eat them from the one I like the less to the one I like the most.

7. Writing my diary every single day in a very detail description about everything

--- Was my OCD. When I was 19 - 22, writing diary was being my obsession. I can be so mad and irritated if I miss one day and forget what happened that day.

--- I think right now I'm already over it. Thanks for the damage of my former computer.

But, BTW, it happens that everyone has their own OCD. Yes! Everyone! You have your own OCD.

And I know one celebrity with pretty bad OCD.

David Beckham

Yup! He is perfectionist, so that "it manifests itself through constant cleanliness and perfection of all that is around him. Anything out of order is enough to cause a conflict and must be attended to immediately. Examples of this complete order is that everything must be in pairs, if there are three books on a table one must be added, or one must be removed. Only 2% of the population suffer from this strong OCD."

Read more: http://www.disabled-world.com/artman/publish/famous-ocd.shtml#ixzz1IA2Bqu7t

In that link above you can see the list of famous people with OCD.

Sometimes OCD can be funny. But OCD can also be dangerous. And sometimes it isn't realized or recognized as OCD. Look all those terrorists and some people whose defending them.

They are not doing what the religion told them. It's not religion. It's OCD. They have OCD about their believes. They are obsessed with the idea that everyone is doing things their way. So, when someone has different view, they get so annoyed and would do anything to get rid of those people in any way.